The Price I Must Pay

shin splintsplural of shin splints

Noun:

Acute pain in the shin and lower leg caused by prolonged running, typically on hard surfaces.

I find this hilarious- "prolonged running" HA HA  I haven't done ANY running yet.  But I have been experiencing the pain of shin splints when I walk.  It is enough to make me want to hang up my "running" shoes, throw in the towel AND give up the ghost.  But alas I keep reminding myself that I will not get what I want if I do.  So endure the pain I will in order to get the end result.  Nothing in life worth having wasn't received without pain- I just look at my 2 wonderful girls to remind me of that.  My end desires are worth the shin splints.  The finish line is worth the daily battle with my old montra- "I just don't want to do it." 

 Well "I just don't want to do it" is exactly what has gotten me here- overweight and unhealthy.  It is my easy out, my "go to" excuse and it is so familiar, it is automatic.  So of course this is the first thing I have to battle each day.  Some days it wins, but most it doesn't.   When I can finally jostle the "Just Do It" to win out over the "I just don't want to do it", and head out to walk, I am confronted with a constant reminder, with each step, that "I JUST DON'T WANT TO DO IT." Walking with pain from your knee to your ankle is unpleasant and I will leave it at that.  

I know I sound like a whiny baby and I try very hard not to be too whiny and bitchy about it, sometimes it seeps out, particularly to my besties and mostly to my cheerleader- Shannon- bless you!  Sometimes I just want to smack myself and spew out those cliche's- "Quitya bitchin", "Put on your big girl panties" blah blah blah.  But then I remind myself that this is my journey, no one else's so if I want to bitch about it, I darn well will HA HA, I will try to keep the seepage down to a minimum.

Ok enough of that-

I don't know what I am going to do about my shin pain- I have done the exercises, iced them and even tried different shoes- which resulted in less shin pain but very sore feet, as they were not even walking shoes.  I was a little encouraged that the pain wasn't as bad as the previous 2 walks.  I am going to wear my "running" shoes to training tomorrow morning (SOOOO not looking forward to getting out of bed at 7 on a Sunday morning) and see if they are better or worse.  And then,..... I will take it from there- if my shins are improving then I will pick up the pace and start working harder.  If not, then, well not really sure.  I will continue to push through the pain and walk but it is slowing me down considerably and if it doesn't get any better eventually, it will effect race day :(  I am not going to think anymore about it tho cause I make a habit of NOT worrying about something that hasn't happened yet.  It is wasted worry. 

Until then,

Icing The Shins