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All life demands struggle. The very striving and hard work that we so constantly try to avoid is the major building block in the person we are today.
Pope Paul VI

Ok first I have to get this off my chest, I have yet to walk.  Ok now that feels better.  I have been "thinking" about walking a lot, everyday as a matter of fact.  If I actually spent as much time walking as I did thinking about it, I would have already walked multiple 5K's.  I cannot tell you how unmotivated I am to actually do this. It sounds so silly, it's just walking right? (I can't even contemplate running at this point) It really comes down to my fear of starting, the fear is actually crippling.  Wow that sounds creepy, I mean its not like I am facing the zombie apocolypse right? 

 I keep telling myself that I am doing this as a means to an end- the end being the person that I want to be this time next year.  I may not like the path, struggles and pain that it will take to get me there but it is the way I have been given.  I am choosing to treat this like all of the difficulties in my life, my divorce, loss of my best friend, painful heartbreak and the day to day life of a single working Mom, and know that without going through those difficulties I would not be the person I am today!!  I have waited long enough for a healthy, appropriately sized woman to emerge from my couch.  If I don't do something now, I never will. 

Now you would think with all that positive energy flowing through me that I would be out walking right now, but NO.  I think I will just sit here and think about it some more. 

Until I walk,

Scarlett O'Hara 

P.s I am wearing my iphone armband today, listening to my music.  I think I should get points for that?